March 30th @ 8:56am (activation day)
Well it's the day! Listening to music right now, while writing this. (when I put my phone up to my left ear I can hear music - something I found out a few days ago). Once I get home from my activation today I am going to listen to music and see! Just remember Hannah, it's going to take time. Be patient. :)
March 30th @ 9:52pm
I just took the CI processors off & let's just say, today was a weird day. I had these beep tests that were uncomfortably loud. I also don't know if I like the Kanso 2 processors that I picked. I wanted them because there was no ear piece but they are bulky and fall off really easily. When I was getting activated today, my audiologist Pat let me try the N7s (the other kind with an ear piece) and they didn't feel as bulky and it felt more sturdy on my head. Because I am an active girl, I think the N7s will suit me better. (insert mom enthusiasm for knowing that Hannah knows what she wants and can make decisions without external influence)
I can choose the N7 still but once I try, I can't go back to the Kanso.
April 1st @ 9:51 pm
So I am on stage 4! (there were 4 programs for me to progress through the first few weeks). I am happy I can hear some voices again...but today is only day 3. (well day 2). I have officially decided that I am not keeping the Kanso 2s. They are way too bulky and they keep falling off. I got my grad photos back today to see. Mom ordered some!
I MISS EVERYONE AT SCHOOL!
GUESS WHAT! OMG OMG OMG
I am getting my N7s tomorrow. EK! I am so excited. I will update you on how they are! I hope I can go to school soon. Everyone keeps asking when I will be back. AWE I MISS THEM!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH I LOVE THE N7s!
My confidence boost just went up! x1000000000000000000
I also love listening to music. I am hearing some of my favourite songs and there are parts I've never heard before. Now I like the songs even better.
They are so great! They stay on so well and less noticeable! I'M SO HAPPY! I CAN'T WAIT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL!
I haven't updated in a bit. My audiologist gave me 4 more programs a few days ago and I am on the second one. I feel like I am now hearing a lot more than I ever did with my hearing aids. I talked with my surgeon and social worker on Tuesday (they are both so nice). I explained that I had no idea how much I was actually missing when I was wearing hearing aids. I am so happy I made the decision to go for it!
I was in the upstairs bathroom and I heard this noise and I was like, "can it be?" The window was CLOSED but I could hear the trampoline springs make noise when my brother and sister were jumping. My bathroom is on the 2nd floor of our house. I was SHOCKED!!!! Mind blown! (also the flush of the toilet was so loud it scared me!)
I am seeing a friend for the first time tomorrow because I am finally confident enough to see someone. (I've been so lonely) We also found out that we are NOT going back to school after April Break. Just when I WAS GOING TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL AND NOW WE DON'T KNOW WHEN WE WILL BE BACK! I can't even...
I want to go back so bad, it's almost summer and I am sad. Well I am happy but I wanted to see my classmates in person. Those are my updates for now. Talk soon!
March 22, 2021
8 days and counting. My CIs will be turned on soon. My brain is doing interesting things. While I am writing in here (my windows are closed and it is 9:20pm), I feel like I am hearing birds chirping in my head. It is weird but relaxing. My ears are not hearing the chirping but my brain is making me feel like I am - just like when I think I am hearing the characters on TV when I watch my favourite shows.
This is a busy week. School work, people are re-doing our roof with new shingles and I am getting my grad photos done on Thursday.
March 25, 2021
AGH, I HAVE GOOD NEWS!
Mom ran into a store after my grad photos and I wanted to stay in the car. I was trying to play a game on my device and it wasn't loading. I went on spotify feeling sad about the music that I used to listen to before my surgery. I miss music so much and surgery was already 20 days ago. I decided to press play and turned up the volume. I played Human by Christina Perri and held it up to my left ear. I heard the music and then I heard her singing. I COULD HEAR IT! ACTUALLY! I'M NOT KIDDING! So I listened for a long time today.
My mom wants to post the video of me singing when I found out I could hear out of my left ear...but I don't know what I sound like...maybe I will just go for it! We only live once. Video 1 is just a few minutes after I realized I could hear the music in my left ear and the 2nd video is when I really got excited about this! Hope you enjoy as much as I did.
I miss ALL MY FRIENDS SO MUCH!
5 DAYS...until activation day!
Video #1: learning I could hear music in my left ear
Video #2: getting excited about it all!
It's been a while since I last wrote in here. I've gotten so many gifts, flowers and cards! I thank every single person for sending them. Mom also gave me a book yesterday. It had all sorts of messages from friends, teachers, family and even some people I don't know (who know my mom). They all said different things of how proud they were of me.
IT WAS THE BEST GIFT!
I will keep you updated, but I also wanted to mention that I am feeling SO MUCH LIKE MYSELF! I even got to have a shower (to wash my hair).
So tomorrow is Friday & I am excited that I've been doing school work & reading my book.
Lately I've been feeling like I am hearing these noises or sounds. When I watch tv using closed captions and I know that it is muted (I can't hear sounds anyway right now), I still feel like I am hearing the character's voices as I watch. So weird.
But it is all in my head. I really miss music. Sometimes I just watch a music video with lyrics and feel the beat through the speakers. When I am in the car, if my mom turns up the music I like to feel the beat too.
On Saturday it will be 10 days until my implants (processors) get turned on. I am excited but nervous. Happy tears right now. ILY all (teen's lingo for I love you all).
March 1, 2021
This is the beginning of my adventure!
I have emotions big and small all inside me. Right now I am actually listening to music while I write this. This is the week, Friday the 5th is my surgery date.
I am so happy and excited for myself! I have so many people supporting me. This will change my life. I can't imagine my amazing future! This is going to be the book I look back on, and smile that my 13 year old me made this life changing decision.
March 3, 2021
Well, look at how quickly things are moving! Today I had to take the covid test, but it really wasn't as bad as I thought!
Also the lady who did the test on me was the wife of the surgeon that is doing my surgery on Friday. I thought that was pretty cool.
March 4, 2021
It's already Thursday! Wow. Tomorrow it is Friday March 5th, the day my life changed. Like a fairy tale!
A good story. A happy ending.
Some family called today to wish me love and luck! I am go to be fine.
Love yourself. Stay Brave. You're gonna be okay!
*this photo below is the front of the journal that she picked out for herself for this phase of her life.